Is Fat More Psychological Than It Is Physical?
It’s not body shaming if you claim to be comfortable in your body
So I was on this bus, yeah, heading to Akwa Ibom state, Nigeria, for the very first time in my life.
My mum was sitting beside me and to my right was a lady and a guy that made up that row in the bus.
3 people per seat in a bus can be discomforting at times, talk more when it's 4.
I FELT I was the fattest of them all seated on my row and I was making them uncomfortable, so I had to try to confine my body in such a way that it seemed like I was squashed in a sandwich.
On the journey, a fart ruined the hot afternoon air we were trying to survive. It wasn't from me, I'm sure it wasn't from me, but at the time, I second-guessed that.
Because I looked around, and though there were people bigger than me, I BELIEVED I was too big for my age, so yeah, I may have farted.
Don't get confused, big = fat.
The second time I was headed to Akwa Ibom, on the last row in the bus a lady was complaining about how the place was already too tight and she hoped they'll bring a slim person to complete the sitting.
I drew back, cos again, I FELT I was fat.
Checking my pictures back then, I realize that my size was more of a psychological problem than it was physical.
What do I mean?
As a 19-year-old, I weighed 50 - 58 kg, which according to the Center for Disease Control (CDC) is an average weight range for a 19-year-old, so according to CDC, I was normal.
But 19-year-old me didn't know that and so didn't agree with that.
I THOUGHT I had to be 45 - 50 to be normal, and since I wasn't comfortable in my body, I felt out of place and blamed myself for a fart that wasn't from me.
But that changed.
I was the fattest in my entire family (both from the paternal and maternal sides), and in fact, I'm still the most likely to be close to obese in the future, (but I won't let that happen).
Look, your body is your greatest asset, no matter the Gucci or Fendi you put on, if you don't feel comfortable in your body, you can't rock it.
So what did I do?
The first step to healing is accepting. The moment I realized I didn't like this and can never be comfortable like this, I took caution with the things I ate and how I ate. Downloaded an exercise app, and tho I wasn't so consistent, I was driven.
I'm 24 and I still weigh between 55 - 58 kg. It seems like it, but I wouldn't say I maintained weight, cos I'm more flexible, lighter, and stronger than I was at 19.
Looking at age as not just a number, the reverse is supposed to be the case, but viola!
In a nutshell;
- If you don’t like feeling fat, do something.
- If you hate being called fat, stop looking it
- If you feel intimidated cos you're fat, lose it
Cos at the end of the day, it's not body shaming if you're comfortable in your body.
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