Wow, I’m A Writer!

More and more each day I find myself a better writer than I was the previous day.

Oh my! I just called myself a writer.

Believe me, 2 years ago, I wouldn't have dared to do that, even though I wrote.

Why?

Because I didn't see anything unique in the things I wrote.

Even though I had people who kept encouraging me and praising my skill, which is something most writers lack, I still doubted.

I have trust issues. Yeah, I don't even trust myself, that's how serious it is.

The thing is, for every piece that I have written, I always think of them as basic initially.

Until whenever I revisit them, then I go "Hold up, I wrote this?"

Sometimes I feel like I should do a throwback to show that even in my growth, I have always been an amazing writer (oops, did it again).

But I'm always held back, because along the way I meet that judgemental me that tells me "What's so unique about this?"

And each time, I'm left speechless. No answer to offer, because even I don't see anything unique.

But all that changed when I decided to make it a lifestyle to write every day.

Initially, the argument was "What if I never find something to write about?"

And for every writer, there's always that one time you didn't write because you thought there was nothing to write about.

For me, I decided not to think much about it.

Besides, I had a lot going on then, and as my bio said, I write here to relieve myself, so that was what I was doing.

Until it became a habit.

Mom would always say "Habits are easy to form, but hard to break".

I hope she's right.

I'm happy that I no longer judge and condemn myself.

I'm happy that I am proud of my writing, even though it hasn't started feeding me yet.

I’m happy that you get to read my work, whenever you get to read them, and understand the humor and pain in them.

I'm happy I'm able to write so we can link.

But most of all, I'm happy to finally embrace and call myself a writer, without a doubt in my heart.

I hope you find your happiness in the things you do.